Infertility: Part 8 The Miracle of Conception

August 20, 2009 was a very happy day. I remember I was sitting with my coworkers eating lunch when I got the call from the nurse. I really didn't believe her. I remember saying, "Are you sure?" a couple of times. Then I said "Can I have another blood test to make sure?" I went home a took a test...sure enough it was POSITIVE! I had light spotting and some cramps like I was going to start my period but it didn't last long; I was in shock. For some reason I always thought that I would just know when I was pregnant, that was not the case, I didn't feel much different until around 10 weeks.


Positive Test with Jacob

My first ultrasound was at 6 weeks. I was very nervous since I could have been pregnant with twins since two embryos were transferred but we were thankfully blessed with one. At the first ultrasound they weren't able to see the heartbeat. I was on pins and needles until my next ultrasound at nine weeks, in fact every appointment made me worried that I might miscarry.

That beautiful day finally came. The day I had been dreaming, praying, and hoping for. Jacob is everything I wished for and more. Sometimes and look at him and think… Did this really happen? Did I really give birth to this little boy? My dream became a reality and I thank God every day for the gift he has given me...the miracle of conception.

Love at first sight! Jacob born at 35 weeks

After having Jacob the darkness of infertility has been less. But, every time I see or hear about someone whether it is on TV, a friend or a complete stranger… I remember. That darkness and pain I can always remember.

So our infertility story continues...

I was hoping that after having Jacob I would just be able get pregnant on my own. Well, that hasn't happened yet. We have been trying for over a year now with no success. I been on Femara (drug like Clomid) for about six months, doesn't seem to help much. I have also been gluten free for about six weeks now. I did some research that going gluten free can help with endometriosis. I've been thinking about seeing a chiropractor and trying acupuncture.

Our 19 "freezer babies" have been on my mind the last couple of months.  Some days that is all I can think about. It's been hard to know when the right time is. It makes it even more difficult when we have to pay $3,000-$4,000 each time to transfer our freezer babies. However, I have faith. I know that "faith in God includes faith in his timing."